L is for Leaving Behind
It is the start of a new year and I have been agonizing about a word (or phrase) to focus on this year. Last year I chose ‘family’ and that was truly a good choice. I needed to focus on my family last year. Our little family came together as a cohesive unit and really cemented the bonds that needed to be strengthened.
But this year needs a different focus and I think it should be ‘leaving behind‘.
In Japan, there is a concept that at the end of a year you start fresh and leave regret and sadness behind you. At least that is what my daughter’s Karate Sensei told us. He said that you can think of it as stuffing all the bad and sadness and evil in your life into a backpack. This is kind of where you put it anyway. I think you usually carry that backpack with you through life until you bend and break. But when that backpack is full and you approach a time of renewal (like at the start of the new year), the Sensei told us that you need to put the backpack down. Just drop it and walk away. Leave it behind and look to your future without the burden of all those things you put into that backpack.
Much of what fills my backpack is secret and deeply personal. But a lot of it is fears that I am not capable of homeschooling my children in the way that they need. Sadness that those days of endless crafts and group art activities are over now that they are teens. Hurt that I made the mistake of starting them out in public school when I should have homeschooled them from the beginning.
My own backpack is pretty full and I think it is time to drop it. It is time for leaving behind my fears and sadness and hurt so I can live bathed in Grace and light and goodness.
And that is why this year for me, is about leaving behind.
Is there anything you would like to leave behind?
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